I got to a late start this morning, so I went to my breakfast restaurant and ordered the quinoa oatmeal with a side of fruit for breakfast…all plain. It was great, but it was so much food that I couldn’t finish it! Lunch was a leftover salad from the pizza ordering yesterday (I hate wasting food). I ate that with leftover quinoa salad. Because I ate breakfast so late, my supplement schedule was off about two hours! This actually ended up working out to my favor because I had to host at the other restaurant I work for (pizza) and didn’t have time to eat at my usual 7pm dinner time. I had Shakeology for my snack, and because I forgot my shaker bottle, I had to use my empty gallon water jug haha! I also turned down the Friday, 4pm beer that anyone who is in the office usually has.
I also do bookkeeping for the pizza restaurant. When I got off of work (early), they told me that they felt like I was treating it like my second job and not getting things done quickly enough. I kind of knew I was slacking a little, but I thought that if it got to the point where they were annoyed they would discuss it with me and I would put in the extra effort. And as I'm typing this out, I am realizing how lame that sounds. I should have been giving it my whole effort the entire time. The truth is, I didn't really enjoy the work, but the money was good.
I am really upset that I lost that source of income and I am disappointed with myself because I let these people down that were relying on me. I still have my hosting job there, but I feel like they are going to view me differently now, and that really bothers me.
IN ADDITION, because I am doing the UR, I can't drink or eat my feelings away, nor can I exercise to the point where I don't have to think. So I guess I have to just DEAL with them, and maybe this is part of it, so thank you if you are still reading.
I am one of those people who thinks that everything happens for a reason, and that maybe this was God's way of telling me that I needed to stop doing what I DIDN'T enjoy and spend that time on things I DO enjoy. I have decided that I am not going to have a pity party, and that I will spend the time that I was bookkeeping on my Beachbody business instead. I think/hope this is the direction that I am supposed to be taking.
I am not really feeling like eating or making dinner tonight, so I am just going to take my supplements and go to bed.
Phew, what a day. I am exhausted.